Missing in Action

I haven't been around in a while, and I apologize. Much has happened since Valentine's Day. I'm blaming everything on Valentine's Day. The guy I've been talking to for the past month and I started really talking and flirting via text and e-mail. And yadda, yadda, yadda, I had to move out of the apartment I shared with my ex because he found out about it (AKA went through all my things), and let's just say, he was less than pleased. It was an unhealthy situation for both of us. We had to break the ties once and for all.

My cat and I are currently living with my mom. It's not bad here. There's always a home-cooked meal, a warm bed, and people who love and care about me. Now, I can talk to whomever, flirt with whomever, and nobody gives a shit. I'm free and happy. For once, I only have myself to worry about.

Groundhog Day

This is my life right now: the movie Groundhog Day, where Bill Murray spends the majority of the movie, having the exact same day over and over. Right now, everything is so routine and tedious. I'm in a rut, emotionally, romantically, and pretty much in every other aspect of my life. I'm in this strange holding pattern, and I can't break out.

I'm really hoping I pull out of this by the summertime, because I can't stand this feeling. It's winter, so for now, I spend my weekends curled up in a blanket, watching bad TV. I don't really have any friends around. There's just nothing going on. The city is foreign to me again. It's like I just moved here, even though I've lived her for 10 years.

One of my girlfriends is going through the same thing, and she described it as being a plane that's flying around, stuck in the air, unable to land. Yeah, that's exactly what it feels like. Just flying around in circles, unable to see the ground below, constantly searching for the bright lights of the runway or some emergency cones or air traffic controllers to flag me in.

In the meantime, I have to remain positive. Things will get better; I just have to give it time. I will meet new people and live again. For now, it's quiet and maybe it's my chance to reflect on everything I want and need out of life.

Has anybody else ever gone through this? What did you do to pull yourself out?

Life

Life happens when you're making other plans. - John Lennon

No truer words have been spoken.

Colette on BitchBuzz: How to Deal When You're Jealous

One of my latest articles for BitchBuzz is about my struggles with my obnoxious friend, her charmed life, and my intense jealousy, and how I dealt with it and moved on. I think we've all been there, one time or another.

(Via BitchBuzz)